We’re five days into 2014 and I hate it. There’s no Great Gran here.

Hospital hands.

I’ve been putting this off because I’m such a downer, but I guess it’s got to be written for me to stop obsessing about wether or not to write it. I miss Great Gran. Everything makes me sad. What to make for dinner. Grocery lists. Buy 1 get 1 free. Amazon Prime. Tacos. When the guy cuts the grass and it looks so good. The as-seen-on-TV section in Target. Bedtime when I’ve called to say sweet dreams every night for the past 10 years. I may have missed a dozen evenings in all that time – we made videos on the hospital nights that I wasn’t there. For the past two months I’ve panicked at 10am because I haven’t talked to Great Gran yet (did she get up, did she take her pills and eat breakfast?). That one is getting better. But the rest of it just sucks. It sucks. And it will suck for a while. So there you go. That’s where I am.

Here’s where I’m supposed to talk about what I want to accomplish this year. Mostly, I’d like to publish more than one pattern before next Christmas. Looking at my patterns chronologically on Ravelry is just depressing.

I also haven’t been part of a swap in a while. I’ve got a good idea for a cold weather (and I hear there is going to be some of that) swap. Anyone want to play and help cheer me up?